M is for Monica. i'm a full time commerce student @ UWA. i turn one year older on the 14th Oct. i ♥ Jesus and not afraid to tell the world. i want to do YWAM and missions in the future. i love heights - planes, skyscrapers, mountains, cliffs, you name it. One day i hope to go bungee jumping and sky diving. i was born in China but have lived in Australia most of my life. Having said that, i'm still quite chinese lol. i like pink things, ribbons, bows, hearts, hello kitty, ruffles, lace, florals. i have a shoe fetish. i wouldn't call myself a shopaholic, although most of my friends would say otherwise. People often see me as strong, independent, ambitious. i thank God for the past 21 years that i've been alive. He has been ever faithful, gracious and loving.



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>Your grace has found me just as i am, empty handed but alive in Your hands
>i called, You answered, i wanna be where You are
>i am a flower quickly fading, here today and gone tomorrow, a wave tossed in the ocean, vapour in the wind. still You hear me when i call out, Lord you catch me when i'm falling and you tell me who i am, i am Yours
>Broken hearts become brand new, that's what faith can do
>A thousand times i've failed, still Your mercy remains. And should i stumble again, still i'm caught in Your grace.
>My heart will sing, no other name, Jesus.
>If i had wings i would fly, coz all that i am, You are. If the world caved in around me, to You i'd still hold on.
>Your light will shine when all else fades
>i'm running to Your arms, i'm running to Your arms. The riches of Your love will always be enough.
>我们不是你和我
>活在第一次的见面里
>只要你一个眼神肯定，我的爱就有意义
>爱转角遇见了谁，是否有爱情的美。爱转角以后的街，能不能有我来陪。
>自由再被绑架之前，我决定过瘾的享受孤单。
>笑着面对每个阻碍，不轻易说离开
>我还记得你笑的像孩子一样
>离开我，你会不会好一点?
>幸福的开始就是放手去爱
>心碎了一地，捡不回从前的心跳
>我会学着放弃你，是因为我太爱你
>you're the only one whose got enough of me to break my heart
>you're the only one i've loved enough to not forget
>Can we pretend that airplanes in the night sky are like shooting stars? i could really use a wish right now
>you're the best thing that's ever been mine
>In a storm, in my best dress, fearless.
>If you're my dream please come true

Rev. Richard Roy came in to preach today. He challenged us whether we really believe in Jesus. Not just saying we believe but to also act out our faith. And when we do really believe, we will become a people of prayer. How important is prayer and devotional time! We can call Him Lord Lord, but is He really the Lord of our lives? What does being Lord mean? Isn't He the One in control of our lives? Not doing what we want but what God wants. Living to glorify His name. Anyone can say, i know Jesus. But likewise, anyone can say i know the president (you know him, but don't know know). At the end of the day when you reach the pearly gates of Heaven, will Jesus say, I do not know you? How do we expect Jesus to know us if we don't spend time with Him? Getting to know someone better requires spending time with them. That is what devotion is all about - a sacrifice of time to grow closer to God. Jesus sacrificed His life on the cross for you. Is a sacrifice of your time too hard? No one can force you to do devotion, it's a personal choice and commitment you have to make yourself. Think about it.

Are we a generation that seeks God's face?



by Faith alone.




Thankyou Lord for always answering prayers! When we needed You and called out, there You were, always ready to work in our lives.

Crossroads again perhaps? Only time can tell.



Yup procrastinating (again). My usual forms would be browsing ebay/online shops and guitaring. Last night i was looking at 21st birthday venues and everything related! i know, it's like a whole year away, but hey, doesn't hurt to research (; But man, so much organising to do!




Today concluded my third year of tertiary education (excluding exams). 8 more days until my first exam /: just realised how much studying i actually need to get done in the next week - need to learn 2 whole units lol. However i'm not stressed at all, for i know God is with me and He will provide, having said that ofcourse i still need to put in my own effort. i wonder how much is going to change in the next few months. What kind of people will i meet? What situations will i face? Where will i go? It's amazing seeing my life pan out in front of me. Seeing everything that happened in the past lead me to where i am now. How it all fit perfectly in God's plan, everything certainly did happen for a reason; making more and more sense as time passes.






















We had two guest speakers come in today. One was Jon's aunty, Nancy and the other her friend Mei Ling. They shared quite a bit about missions. It was really encouraging! What struck home was when aunty Mei Ling shared her testimony of when she was in Hawaii doing YWAM. She rented this flat and the previous tenant rang her asking to take her bed back. Aunty didn't have money to buy a new bed and couldn't sleep on the floor due to the carpet being very dusty and she suffering from asthma. She prayed and prayed but God didn't answer. And when God actually did answer and told her, 'ask me for a bed', she questioned whether God really could provide her with one. That's when she said she realised she didn't actually trust God. We say and know that He is almighty, all powerful etc but sometimes when it comes down to the little things, like a bed, we fail to trust that God will provide. So many times we try to do things on our own strength, and when we fail, that's when we turn back to God. There and then is when i understood the real meaning of trusting in God. Knowing that God's strength is made perfect in our weakness, that He is sufficient for us and will provide for us.




Yay finallyyyyy got a new camera! i'm loving its features!



i really wanted a pink one tho. but myer only had silver ): ah well that's ok, what matters most is the inside ;P



It has this awesome feature called Sweep Panorama which basically allows me to take an "extended picture", like so:



What you do is hold down the shutter and slowly move it across the area you want to photograph. That's 3/4 of my room right there, all in one picture! So awesome C:
i'm really liking this camera lol
Now i can take nice pics in China (:



Btw, sorry for the lack of substance lately. i've been getting carried away with all my materialism and obsessions. My birthday week has just ended and now it's time to shift my focus (: i have just made a list of 2011 New Year's Resolutions! But you will have to wait till next year to find out what they are ;P As for now, i have 300 Sunday School point cards to cut & paste and 2 weeks worth of AFM lectures to catch up on. Tooodlesss!



Have you ever looked EVERYWHERE for something but just CAN'T find it?! But then you leave it for a while and come back later and UNINTENTIONALLY find it?! And it was in the most obvious place that it just makes you feel like a retard? Well that happened to me just then. i was running late for class (as usual) in the arvo and i couldn't find my lecture notes! All 10 weeks worth. i ran up and down the house but just couldn't find them! So in the end i had to give up and go to class. And just then (after coming back from uni), i find them under my leavers jumper, which was at the foot of my bed ._.

Sometimes, it's the same when we think a problem's impossible to solve, or we're in a dilemma and see no way out. But when we shift our focus on God, everything becomes clearer. He is the one who opens our eyes and when we're close to Him, we can see things from a totally new perspective. And then perhaps we are able to see the bigger picture. The picture He had already painted for our lives; now just waiting for the puzzle pieces to come together. i was talking with a friend last night and we were musing on how amazing it is to see the puzzle pieces come together, each one fitting perfectly in its designated place, especially while you're living in the moment. We were reminded again of God's perfect timing and plans for our lives. Yea it was good to remember that God has never, and will never forget us. Sometimes we just need to be a little patient to see His plans unravel. But it will all be worth it in the end (: God is good, and His mercy and grace endures forever.



i have decided, if i was ever going to have a pet, i would have a little black cat. Something like this:



Isn't it cute?



Lol omgosh! i just found the Aux-In plug in my car!!!!! DOH. It was in the glove box ._. But all good, now i can connect my ipod to my car stereo :D Already purchased the cable thingy off ebay. Yay can't wait till it gets here! (:

Only 2 more weeks of uni! i finish exams in 1 month and 1 day :D



i'm looking for a pair of (flattering) floral shorts. Something like this:




i can get these online from Freez or off Ebay. However i would like to try them on first because alot of these shorts make your hips/ass look huge /: But i've yet to find a retail store here that sells these ):

Another thing on my current shopping list is a floral jumpsuit! The one i've had my eye on @ Forever New is on SALE but they didn't have my size! booo. Going to see if the City store has my size (: which i highly doubt but hey, worth a try.

i would also like this from Sportsgirl:


But again they didn't have my size ): So i'm gonna go check out the city stores for this piece too :D



i'm tempted to get one of these:



It's a Fuji Intax Mini Polaroid Camera
It costs around $75AUD on Ebay and film costs $1 per piece. Man the film is so ex!
Hmmm

Picked up my travel wallet from Kikki K today :D



Got one for SarahAnn for her birthday. i really liked it so went back to get one for myself lol. This will come in handy (:



Read this post!
The 5 Pillars of Manhood
^everything i want in a guy right there (;



Both my parents wrote me cards (separate ones O: ) for my bday. This is the first time EVER that either of them have written me a card. Gosh i was so touched i cried (x I LOVE YOU MUM AND DAD!



When i look at other people who are 20 years old, i would think, yea they're still young. But when i look at myself, i feel so old! Nevertheless, i am now officially not a teen anymore.

ThankYou Lord for the past twenty years. ThankYou for Your ever faithfulness; Your unconditional love; Your unending grace and mercy; Your provisions; for being my God. ThankYou for the people in my life; my family, my friends. Maybe i have a whole life ahead of me, maybe not. i don't live everyday expecting to live until a very old age. i want to do something with this life God has given me, while i still have the chance, while i'm still young. At the end of the day, when i go see my Heavenly Father face to face, i hope He will say to me, "Welcome home my good and faithful child, you have used the time I had given you well." i know God has far greater plans for me; i can just feel it. i feel i'm not meant to live the rest of my life in this place, i'm meant to go out there. i want to experience how it feels to have your heart break at the things that breaks God's heart. i want to get out there and do something. And at this point in time, i believe that is what God wants me to do. My passion - His will - Missions. If it IS God's Will, then it will happen; whether i like it or not, no matter what choices i make. His Will will ultimately be done in my life. Lord Jesus You are in control of my life; and i'm still learning to completely trust. Please take this life of mine. When You call i will follow. i live for Your Glory.


Look what i received in the mail a week ago :D



Time for some shopping :D

Hold on, make it last.
Hold on, never turn back.

Urgh. i just found out that Bart Simpson's full name is Bartholomew too >_>
Time to rename my guitar (x or maybe just go with the flow...



Today something really spoke out to me during the sermon; Sister Francis shared about one of her friends who:
is a missionary in China,
teaches English,
fostered children.
i was kinda zooming out before that but when she said mission-china i immediately snapped back. As she said those 3 things, there was a bell going off in my head *ding.ding.ding* That is exactly what i want to do, and what i'm passionate about.

While i was doing my quiet time just then, i prayed for God to speak to me through His word. i opened my Bible and landed on Luke Chapter 10 -

1After this the Lord appointed seventy-two others and sent them two by two ahead of Him to every town and place where He was about to go. 2He told them, "The harvest is plentiful, but the workers are few. Ask the Lord of the harvest, therefore, to send out workers into His harvest field. 3Go! I am sending you out like lambs among wolves. 4Do not take a purse or bag or sandals; and do not greet anyone on the road..."

God is indeed faithful and He answers prayers!

Lord, when You call, i will follow.

p.s. Oh my and it's 101010 today!!



未完待续



那么我们就到这里你说好吗
反正你会说的也只剩谎话
太多人分这句Honey就像蛋糕爬满了蚂蚁
越美丽我只会越伤心

Ohbaby那些不够爱的爱别再说是爱
我也不再是只要糖果的小女孩
爱不能分配只能很纯粹
纯粹的只给一个谁(只给一个谁)
那些到处爱的爱别再说是爱
故事也不会永远只照你的剧本拍
流过的泪是毕业前的学费
爱只给一个谁
欺骗是你基因的天性对不对(对不对对不对)
所以傻傻犯错的怪我会不会(会不会Oh)
太多人你都叫甜心就像布满霉菌的声音
越好听我只会越伤心

Ohbaby那些不够爱的爱别再说是爱
我也不再是只要糖果的小女孩
爱不能分配只能很纯粹
纯粹的只给一个谁(只给一个谁)
那些到处爱的爱别再说是爱
故事也不会永远只照你的剧本拍
流过的泪是毕业前的学费
爱只给一个谁
你优雅空洞的字汇就让别人去感觉

我要的只是在深夜
安安静静的星空下两个人座位
一晚只给我的笑还有你
只要给我一个最安心的怀抱
Ohyeah那不是爱baby那不是爱

Ohbaby那些不够爱的爱别再说是爱
我也不再是只要糖果的小女孩
爱不能分配只能很纯粹
纯粹的只给一个谁(只给一个谁)
那些到处爱的爱别再说是爱
故事也不会永远只照你的剧本拍
流过的泪是毕业前的学费
爱只给一个谁
那不是爱Oh那不是爱Oh那不是爱
那不是爱Oh那不是爱Oh那不是爱



As promised, here is a picture of my assembled shoeshelf! It doesn't look like i have that many shoes hey. But i've made a promise to not buy another pair of shoes until i go to China O: 50 more days until i'm outta here!! So excited! Heh, but must get through exams first /:





Hi everyone! Meet Bartholomew! You can call him Bart for short (: i recently bought him at a music store sale and he sounds absolutely amazing! He is a Taylor Big Baby (3/4 size) but makes such a nice crisp sound, not losing to full size guitars. He's meant to be my 20th birthday present from the parents (funny thing is, my dad currently does not know about Bart since he has been overseas, nor do i think he will notice the new baby when he comes back). i've only been guitaring for around 2 months so still have much much more to learn. But exams are coming up in exactly 1 month so don't think i'll have much time to practice ): i'm also going away end of the year for 2 months. i really enjoy playing guitar; i could just jam for hours if i had the time. It's completely different to piano - i hated practicing! Back in the days, i would have a piano lesson on a Sunday or something, not practice during the whole week, then have another lesson the following Sunday. It was pretty bad. i just hated practicing >< maybe it's because i dislike classical songs lol. i would love to be able to ear read and just play songs like that. However unfortunately anything to do with ear and pitch i'm horrible at. The only thing i can do is sight read (x And maybe that's how i've been able to pass my piano exams without putting much effort into the practicing part lol. But anyway, i still like playing Jay Chou piano pieces (; i've already learnt Qing Tian on guitar! (:





p.s Thank You Lord for all Your provisions (:







I don't want to be someone I'm not. I don't want to change for someone just because I think I need to be better to match up. It all feels so superficial right now and I don't want to feel this way. If you don't like me the way I am, then I'm sorry, because this is me; a girl who wants to learn how to love like God loved us but at the same time scared of getting hurt. A girl chasing after her dream and willing to do everything she can to get there. Which is the real you? Inside, I've asked this question multiple times about different people. I even ask myself that. My emotions are shown on my face most of the time. Some days I would feel sociable and talkative, other times I just want to loner on my ipod and hide away in a corner. It feels like I've hit a dead end. I was so sure that this path lead to something beyond; perhaps I was wrong. But I know God will make a way, when there seems to be no way. He will open a window when a door is closed behind us. Just let it all go, for God is in control, and only He has the keys to those doors.



祝你们幸福...

祝你们幸福...

祝你们幸福...

祝你们幸福...

而我还在这

时间真的可以改变一切

一转眼我们也长大了

就这样吧







WOOOO bought a new guitar today!!! Got the Taylor Big Baby :D i'm in love with it ;D Will put pictures up soon :D

Chinese essay update: 745/2000 characters O: not too bad lolol. i'm writing a lot of crap tho haha.

Just click on the picture above, then click on play, then leave the mouse alone, sit back and enjoy a piece of creative brilliance.

my blog, my life - God's way; M

YEOWW! i have just assembled and arranged my shoe bookcase!!! FINALLY all my shoes are neat and tidy and have a home for themselves :D Goodness, i'm throwing out 14pairs of shoes/boots and still have 49 pairs ._. So the official count (before the ones are thrown out) is SIXTY-THREE (63) !! O: (my bad, when i said rough estimate less than 60 lol)

will take a picture when i can be bothered