M is for Monica. i'm a full time commerce student @ UWA. i turn one year older on the 14th Oct. i ♥ Jesus and not afraid to tell the world. i want to do YWAM and missions in the future. i love heights - planes, skyscrapers, mountains, cliffs, you name it. One day i hope to go bungee jumping and sky diving. i was born in China but have lived in Australia most of my life. Having said that, i'm still quite chinese lol. i like pink things, ribbons, bows, hearts, hello kitty, ruffles, lace, florals. i have a shoe fetish. i wouldn't call myself a shopaholic, although most of my friends would say otherwise. People often see me as strong, independent, ambitious. i thank God for the past 21 years that i've been alive. He has been ever faithful, gracious and loving.



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>Your grace has found me just as i am, empty handed but alive in Your hands
>i called, You answered, i wanna be where You are
>i am a flower quickly fading, here today and gone tomorrow, a wave tossed in the ocean, vapour in the wind. still You hear me when i call out, Lord you catch me when i'm falling and you tell me who i am, i am Yours
>Broken hearts become brand new, that's what faith can do
>A thousand times i've failed, still Your mercy remains. And should i stumble again, still i'm caught in Your grace.
>My heart will sing, no other name, Jesus.
>If i had wings i would fly, coz all that i am, You are. If the world caved in around me, to You i'd still hold on.
>Your light will shine when all else fades
>i'm running to Your arms, i'm running to Your arms. The riches of Your love will always be enough.
>我们不是你和我
>活在第一次的见面里
>只要你一个眼神肯定，我的爱就有意义
>爱转角遇见了谁，是否有爱情的美。爱转角以后的街，能不能有我来陪。
>自由再被绑架之前，我决定过瘾的享受孤单。
>笑着面对每个阻碍，不轻易说离开
>我还记得你笑的像孩子一样
>离开我，你会不会好一点?
>幸福的开始就是放手去爱
>心碎了一地，捡不回从前的心跳
>我会学着放弃你，是因为我太爱你
>you're the only one whose got enough of me to break my heart
>you're the only one i've loved enough to not forget
>Can we pretend that airplanes in the night sky are like shooting stars? i could really use a wish right now
>you're the best thing that's ever been mine
>In a storm, in my best dress, fearless.
>If you're my dream please come true

ARGH my mum is so asian!! So bought 5 packs of party sausage rolls because they were on special for $4 each if you buy 5 packs -_- Normally they would be $6 each -_- Great...influx of unhealthy junk >_> now who's supposed to be the health freak >_>
But never fear, i will bring them all to youth/church LOL



Oh my, i've only just realised how beautiful Greece is! Especially Santorini!! i've always thought Greece was some boring place with lots of big ass buildings XD Gosh have i been living in a hole or what?! That's why i've never been interested in visiting there. And now, i can't help but think to myself, man Greece will make a really good honeymoon location LOL! But on a more serious note, i MUST go there at least once in my lifetime!

Some beautiful picturesss:

Mykonos




Santorini







Do you ever get those moments when you feel everything is just meaningless, hopeless, worthless? When you think to yourself, why on earth am i doing what i am doing? It's hard to explain that feeling; a feeling of somewhat emptiness but not knowing why you're feeling that way. Well i felt it, just then. i get these once in a while actually, and i have no idea why. And that's when an alarm bell rang in my head, *time for some serious quiet time with God*. Now, an hour later, i felt much better. A sense of relief, lifting all my burdens to Him, telling Him how i feel. It's been building up over the past few weeks; i've always been praying for other people, but i forgot to pray about my relationship with God. Time to get right with God and take devotion seriously, all the time.






Time is flying by! I guess this is what happens when everything becomes more or less like a cycle. It's already halfway through week 5 and i feel like i've done nothing so far this semester, but i guess this happens every sem lol. Applied Financial Management (AFM) isn't too bad actually. Right now we're learning stuff i've already covered in Derivatives last semester. Taking Financial Statement Analysis (FSA) pretty easy; haven't been to a single lecture (apart from the very first one), i blame it on Sarah & Sharon ;P. Chinese is the usual; skits this sem are funny tho! However, Auditing completing eludes me. i've yet to touch either of the 2 thick ass books which cost ~$200 -_-. It's kinda like law, with the handbook and all. Way too much thinking for my liking. i'm def a maths person.

It's funny how in commerce we abbreviate almost every unit.
and the list goes on...
So if you hear any of us saying these acronyms, you now know what we're on about ;P

Why the lack of time if i barely have any classes? Well i work nearly 2 full days a week, and the rest of the week is filled with classes (kinda). Friday arvo is meant to be dedicated to our online business; but when it's not, i'd drop by city for some shopping (: Friday night from now onwards will be filled with Cell Outings. i finish uni quite late on Wed & Thurs so after i get home, just don't feel like doing anything! Sat arvo is my FSA tute work time. Then obviously Sat night is youth group. Sunday mornings i teach Sunday School (few times a month), after that Church service. Sunday night is my Auditing tute work time. Oh i forgot about AFM tute work - that is usually crammed on Thurs night lol. So yea, not a single free day at home to bum around. i prefer it this way tho. Busyness is good. Also gets your mind off things. i've learnt not to think too much over the years XD Stop thinking, just do it.



Currently i'm learning a few Taylor Swift songs:
Tim McGraw
Fearless
Mine
You Belong With Me

i get all my guitar tabs/chords/lyrics off Ultimate Guitar

Hmm should start learning some Christian songs (:

• China Study Tour with Cel & Ivy!! (Nov'10 - Feb'11)
• Hongkong!!On the way back from China (Feb'11)
• Vacation work (If i manage to get in - last 3 weeks of Feb'11)
• Sydney & Melbourne?! (June/July'11)
• Europe (Dec'11 - Jan'12)
• Japan & Korea (June/July'12)
• YWAM 2013
• 2013 onwards...MISSIONS!!!
  

Lol i have a sudden urge to buy a harmonica off ebay XD
and no, HARmonica is NOT funny >_>



Gosh i only just realized how much i hate auditing! And it was the first preference on all my vacation work applications thus far! What on earth am i thinking?! i think i should put Tax or Advisory in the future instead. But Tax is hard and complicated /: (which reminds me i still have to do my tax returns!!) and advisory you have to talk to ppl and..advise them /: Bahhh accounting sucks in general!!









My capo arrived in the mail 2 days ago! i got it for less than $3 on Ebay mwhaha; it's a gold colour, matching the frets on my guitar (: And finally, i was able to learn the song Teardrops on my Guitar! It's on capo 3 so that's why i had to wait for my capo to arrive. i have already learnt and memorized the whole song (: However my chord changing is still not too smooth and strumming is a bit hmm...practice practice practice




COVER LETTERS I HATE YOU!!



So i've FINALLY gotten down to apply for vacation work. Well i'm only doing it tonight coz applications for EY close tomo at noon lol. And Deloitte closes tomo night but i figured i should use tomo night to study for my AFM test on Friday. Just finished the EY app, wasn't so bad after all! i didn't know that my previous application's answers were still saved! So the saved answers saved me alot of time (:

Now to do the Deloitte one





























i absolutely love every single piece in this collection! If i could get my hands on one piece, any one, my life would be complete! haha not really but you get the idea. i admit some of them look kinda weird but still, i reckon they're so pretty! The collection is so simple but elegant and feminine at the same time. Here are some of my favourite pieces from the collection:






As you probably can tell, i love the bows!!

And future wedding dresses!! --->



Some of the weirder ones:





Ah man, i've been sent a few shopping discount vouchers O:
Namely: Myer, Witchery, Country Road and Priceline.
Now the question is, to shop or not to shop? /:

p.s. i am in LOVE with Valentino's newest collection! Pictures up next blog post (:

"if you don’t go after what you want, you’ll never have it.
if you don’t ask, the answer is always no.
if you don’t step forward, you’re always in the same place."

my blog, my life - God's way; M

The grass isn’t greener on the other side of the fence, it’s greener where you water and fertilize it!

It's past 11pm and i'm contemplating whether or not to apply for vacation work at all. Well honestly one reason is because i am completely buggered and it's late and i'm tired. Another reason is i seriously do not want to be an accountant. This semester i'm doing an auditing unit and all i can say is, it sucks. i've always found a conflict between the things that i like and the things that i'm good at. For example, in high school i really liked Physics, believe it or not. It's the only TEE science i did. However i wasn't particularly good at it. Accounting is another one. i've never been too bad at accounting; ok to be frank, it's my highest scoring unit/s and also ones which i put in the least effort and time. you'd be surprised how many accounting tutorials i've actually attended these 2.5yrs at uni (close to none because most of them aren't compulsory lol).

you might argue that it doesn't hurt to apply. If i get it, that means God wants me to do this. If not, oh well *shrugs*. But in actual fact, it's the interview that scares me. i don't want to go through that 2 hour long interview again /: i mean, who likes interviews?

All of this just feels so insignificant. i know i say i want to go on mission to China, long term even. But i actually don't know how i'm going to go about that. Everything is easier said than done. The current plan is a postgrad in education after my commerce degree. Considering YWAM after that. But i know my plans will fail badly if God isn't in it all. Still seeking His will everyday.

i've always felt that i'm not meant to stay in Perth for the rest of my life. i'm someone that can leave everything behind and start off new (lol i know i've said this many times before). There's actually alot of things i wanna do in life - travel the world, go on mission, own a fashion store, bungee jumping, sky diving - to name a few. And it's funny coz these things don't include getting married, settling down, having kids. Ok, i think weddings are pretty nice, and i'd like to have one, but only because i'll get to wear a beautiful gown lol! On the other hand, i've realised how hard it is to go on mission (or just a foreign environment) by yourself. i've come to realise how important it is to have spiritual support. Ahhh the contradiction lol.

It's ok, for God has a plan for my life (:

i digress, for today, i have just bookmarked the vacation work application pages. Will get back to them another day, i promise.



So, i literally got up at 5am this morning to go to a flea market with Cel. This is the earliest i have gotten up in years (not counting travel). We reached Melville Plaza at 6.15 and grabbed a parking bay. It costs $10/bay. So we set up all our wares in wait for the buyers to swarm in. Sold more than we expected actually. Not many clothes but quite a few accessories and bags. However the only trouble was getting out of the place. The market ends at 11.30 but we needed to leave at 10am for church. And there were many people around the place, on top of that other stall owners. i drove the Odessey and nearly ran over heaps of ppl + other seller's stuff whilst trying to get out of my lot. Thankfully there were some kind hearted people who helped direct my car (telling me which way to turn the steering wheel lol) and we eventually left the place with no casualties. The stall owner next to us got quite grumpy and annoyed because we nearly ran over her stuff. She even yelled at me for being a crap driver >_>;; Afterwards i read on a pamphlet that sellers weren't meant to leave the place until 11.30. oh well..not like i'm gonna be going back there anytime soon. Still have half our junk left tho. But made quite a bit of money - yay for more capital into our 'business' fund (:

Right now it's nearly 8.30pm and i've been up for 15+ hours. Surprisingly not really tired but i know i should go to sleep. very soon. Have a 9am class tomorrow - which has a quiz that i havent studied for at all. ahhh bummer. It's been a good weekend though (: the semester only gets tougher from here onwards /: quite a few commitments - uni, work, church, hobby, friends. Oh did i mention i started learning guitar? Jz kindly gave me her guitar and so far i've learnt most chords. Been wanting to learn for a while now but never got around to it. Derek taught me a bit on comm retreat (: Not sure how much time i'm gonna have to practice tho. That reminds me, i need to buy a capo off ebay lol. Would you believe i havent shopped on ebay at all this year?! Honest (:



If God didn't direct my life, honestly, i would be completely lost. If He wasn't in my life, i don't know where i would be today. Just one thing that struck me on Sat: we sing songs every week that proclaim, Lord i will give You everything, but do we really mean what we sing? What does with EVERYTHING mean? Do we pay special attention to the lyrics? Do we act out all that we sing? The google definition of everything is: "Everything is all that exists...generally defined as the opposite of nothing." Not just a part of you, or even most of you. But ALL of you. Every aspect of our lives - not only what others can see. i wonder what percentage of the lyrics we sing are sung with real meaning. i'm guilty as anything of getting really distracted during worship. Sometimes i just find it SO hard to focus on God. Usually because there's heaps of other stuff in my mind. But i find that when we do manage to quieten down our hearts, God's presence is overwhelming. How does it feel to just stand in AWE of God? On Friday i went to BPyouth group and we watched a movie/short film on Creation. One word: WOW. To be reminded of God's GREATNESS literally. He placed the starts in the sky and knows them by name! How big is our universe?! That's how great God is! Proverbs 9:10 - The fear of the Lord is the beginning of wisdom, and knowledge of the Holy one is understanding.

ah man my post was all over the place lol. i shall just end with,

Without You, i am nothing; so i will give You my everything.