M is for Monica. i'm a full time commerce student @ UWA. i turn one year older on the 14th Oct. i ♥ Jesus and not afraid to tell the world. i want to do YWAM and missions in the future. i love heights - planes, skyscrapers, mountains, cliffs, you name it. One day i hope to go bungee jumping and sky diving. i was born in China but have lived in Australia most of my life. Having said that, i'm still quite chinese lol. i like pink things, ribbons, bows, hearts, hello kitty, ruffles, lace, florals. i have a shoe fetish. i wouldn't call myself a shopaholic, although most of my friends would say otherwise. People often see me as strong, independent, ambitious. i thank God for the past 21 years that i've been alive. He has been ever faithful, gracious and loving.



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>Your grace has found me just as i am, empty handed but alive in Your hands
>i called, You answered, i wanna be where You are
>i am a flower quickly fading, here today and gone tomorrow, a wave tossed in the ocean, vapour in the wind. still You hear me when i call out, Lord you catch me when i'm falling and you tell me who i am, i am Yours
>Broken hearts become brand new, that's what faith can do
>A thousand times i've failed, still Your mercy remains. And should i stumble again, still i'm caught in Your grace.
>My heart will sing, no other name, Jesus.
>If i had wings i would fly, coz all that i am, You are. If the world caved in around me, to You i'd still hold on.
>Your light will shine when all else fades
>i'm running to Your arms, i'm running to Your arms. The riches of Your love will always be enough.
>我们不是你和我
>活在第一次的见面里
>只要你一个眼神肯定，我的爱就有意义
>爱转角遇见了谁，是否有爱情的美。爱转角以后的街，能不能有我来陪。
>自由再被绑架之前，我决定过瘾的享受孤单。
>笑着面对每个阻碍，不轻易说离开
>我还记得你笑的像孩子一样
>离开我，你会不会好一点?
>幸福的开始就是放手去爱
>心碎了一地，捡不回从前的心跳
>我会学着放弃你，是因为我太爱你
>you're the only one whose got enough of me to break my heart
>you're the only one i've loved enough to not forget
>Can we pretend that airplanes in the night sky are like shooting stars? i could really use a wish right now
>you're the best thing that's ever been mine
>In a storm, in my best dress, fearless.
>If you're my dream please come true

if you strongly believe and expect something to happen, it probably will. for example, if people expected interest rates to rise in the near future, they will act in a way that will actually cause them to rise. just a week ago i believed my life to be in a trough, and now it really is. which kinda sucks to say the least. only God alone can solve these problems. praying praying praying.



i feel really shit. screwed my econs exam.
talk about a turn of events and emotions





i've been such an idiot lately. today i found out ivy got a job interview for myer and complained that i hadnt gotten one yet, nor had i received word of rejection. after i got home i checked my online application. it said i was invited to apply for christmas casual. i was confused because i didnt remember receiving an email about that. then i went to check my inbox again and realised i had overlooked that invitation!!! like, i had opened the mail but never read it >_> but, thankfully applications close in mid-sept so i still have a chance of getting in! man i felt so stupid.



i have this ability to always wake up before my alarm clock sounds. for example, i set my alarm to 8am this morning. i woke up at 7.50am. i managed to get up at 8.30am today. i got up this early to finish my chinese assignment *gasp*. i had only done 1/3 of it last night *gaspx2* this is my first time trying to finish an assignment on the day. sucks. yes i'd better get to it ><"

also want to finish studying econs today S:



man Cel you just made my day. i have not loled so hard in a longgg time.
our conversation about emu and ostriches:

(F)//Mº {i am Yours} says:
how much is emu oil?
T to the EE to the PEE says:
emu's more ex 100 ml for $25
(F)//Mº {i am Yours} says:
hmm
T to the EE to the PEE says:
i think i'll go wiith eucalyptus, never heard of emu
(F)//Mº {i am Yours} says:
><""""
T to the EE to the PEE says:
i mean i know what an emu is duhhhhhh but not emu oil
T to the EE to the PEE says:
besides emu oil's not v. popular
(F)//Mº {i am Yours} says:
ROFL
(F)//Mº {i am Yours} says:
i think emu will be more popular with the chinese than eucalyptus
T to the EE to the PEE says:
really?
T to the EE to the PEE says:
why?
(F)//Mº {i am Yours} says:
china ppl prob never heard of eucalytus
(F)//Mº {i am Yours} says:
XD
T to the EE to the PEE says:
hahah but eucalyptus is like a native plant so its aussie-like
(F)//Mº {i am Yours} says:
lol
(F)//Mº {i am Yours} says:
emu is native
T to the EE to the PEE says:
emus are found worldwide
(F)//Mº {i am Yours} says:
ROFL
T to the EE to the PEE says:
really?
(F)//Mº {i am Yours} says:
really?
(F)//Mº {i am Yours} says:
isnt that ostritch??
T to the EE to the PEE says:
yes i googled
T to the EE to the PEE says:
whats the diff they're the same to me
(F)//Mº {i am Yours} says:
ROFLED
(F)//Mº {i am Yours} says:
they are diff species of animals!!!
T to the EE to the PEE says:
long necks/legs, small head, feathery
(F)//Mº {i am Yours} says:
emu is native!!
T to the EE to the PEE says:
they're even the same colour
(F)//Mº {i am Yours} says:
ROFLMAO
T to the EE to the PEE says:
i think
(F)//Mº {i am Yours} says:
you are funny
(F)//Mº {i am Yours} says:
go google again
T to the EE to the PEE says:
its true!
T to the EE to the PEE says:
ohhh ok ur right
T to the EE to the PEE says:
what emu in chinese
T to the EE to the PEE says:
is it鸸?
(F)//Mº {i am Yours} says:
tuo niao
(F)//Mº {i am Yours} says:
wait...thats ostritch
(F)//Mº {i am Yours} says:
>_>
T to the EE to the PEE says:
.....LOL
(F)//Mº {i am Yours} says:
then i have no clue
T to the EE to the PEE says:
dw yeh its er
(F)//Mº {i am Yours} says:
HAHAHAH
(F)//Mº {i am Yours} says:
whats 鸸
T to the EE to the PEE says:
EMU!!!!!!
(F)//Mº {i am Yours} says:
hows it pronounced?
T to the EE to the PEE says:
er
(F)//Mº {i am Yours} says:
ROFLLLLLLLLLLLL
T to the EE to the PEE says:
!!!!!
(F)//Mº {i am Yours} says:
er?
(F)//Mº {i am Yours} says:
isnt that goose??
T to the EE to the PEE says:
this is goose 鹅
T to the EE to the PEE says:
its pronounced e
(F)//Mº {i am Yours} says:
>_>
T to the EE to the PEE says:
i never knew that
(F)//Mº {i am Yours} says:
so emu is er?
T to the EE to the PEE says:
yeh

ah man i have tears from laughing so hard. yes we were discussing our chinese assignment lol. and yes i should make a start on it. due tomo >_>



this is what my stupid baby cousin did to my econs notes!! :


but fear not, thank God for photocopiers:


ofcourse cant forget the snacks - very handy things when it comes to studying (;


and that is what i get up to on a sunday afternoon



its been a very interesting year or two. alot has happened since the end of high school. and you know what, i love uni life so much more than high school. it is the best. last year if you asked me whether i missed high school, i would've said yes. but now, no way. i guess we've all grown up in many ways. another step to adulthood haha. now i just need to get my Ps XD

sometimes i imagine my life after uni. would it still be in the same environment - living at home, catching public transport to work in the CBD, working 9-5 mon-fri. or maybe i will move to a larger city like melbourne, live in an apartment with a lovely view of the city (one of those that have full glass walls!), working in a job with high salary, you know, living the life as they would call it. and ofcourse i would have the perfect bf (well perfect in my eyes anyway) - Christian, caring, loving, thoughtful, smart, rich, gentlemanly, humble, spontaneous, tall and the list goes on...(;

but honestly, i dont like 'what ifs' or 'what will bes'. what use is it worrying over the future? that just causes more problems and burdens. i am ready to face the future, because i know my future is in God's hands.



i love rainy days, especially ones like today: medium heavy rain+grey clouds for the entire day. feels great. do i sound emo? i'm not emo! rainy days are just so...peaceful. the sound of rain on the rooftop and windowsill makes me happy. well actually i wouldnt like the rainy season in asia. its just way too humid. i cant stand humid weather.

you know what is my favourite rainy scenario (that i've experienced)? its a day where i'm walking alone in the university underpass, listening to my favourite sad chinese song on my ipod, with the pounding sound of rain above me. haha i'm weird, i know.



my grandma is quite an interesting person. she keeps bits and pieces of pretty much everything. she hates throwing out things because she thinks they may come in handy sometime in the future. this has proven to be quite useful in most cases but our house is a mess. every time we tidy it, it just gets messy again. the same goes for my study/computer desk. things just keep piling up on it, until one day i cant stand it anymore, or my mum tells me to, i'll clean it up.

like the saying goes, the old has gone, the new has come. or something along the lines of that. how true is that? how many times have we lost something and then thought to ourselves, 'oh well, at least i can buy a new one now'. mind you i dont lose things very often unlike some ppl *coughjoanliucough* jkjk.

anyway same with our spiritual lives i guess. we all know the importance of asking God for forgiveness of our sins, but often we forget, repenting is acknowledging our sins, and then turning away from them. what use is it when we say, i'm sorry Lord for doing this, but then go and do it again, something which i do all the time. the old must be gone before the new can come. 2Corinthians 5:17 says, "Therefore, if anyone is in Christ, he is a new creation; the old has gone, the new has come!"



i've fallen sick for the second time in the past month. uni workload is piling up. lots of assignments are coming up. i feel crap and just dont feel like doing anything. oh btw, it took me 10 attempts to get 100% in myfinancelab test 1. how sad is that. but i still thank God.

even if my whole life is in the pits, i'll still hold onto Jesus. for He is my hope. He is my help in times of need. i believe i can overcome all things with the strength He gives me. nothing is too big for Him. when everything is pulling me down, i find that it helps to change my perspective. when we focus on all our problems, they just overwhelm us. but if we focus on Jesus, you'll find your problems seem smaller and smaller.



so this is what it feels like to be really hungry. alot of the times we complain that we are starving just because we may have missed a meal or eaten a meal late. however, we dont even know what it really means to be starving. have you gone 7 days without any food? or maybe even just 1? probably not. well to be honest, i havent either, unless i'm doing the famine. by doing the 40hr famine, i could actually experience a tiny bit of what these african children are going through. what's more, they dont even have clean water to drink. during these 40hrs i still had clean water to drink. we are so privileged to be living in this country. poverty, in all honesty, isnt going to end. but we can make a difference by donating to these charities. every little bit counts.



got my braces today. it didnt hurt at all O: however, they are hurting now.
today was also dad's bday. mum bought a chocolate cake from miss maud. it looks soooo good. but i cant eat!! i will have to wait till sunday to eat it lol. urgh i'm hungry ):









mum bought mini mooncake thingys today! you can probably guess, the hellokitty is for me, the pig for my bro (he's a pig - chinese zodiac), and there was also a fish for dad, but he already ate the head off before i could take a pic! they were really yummy (:

anyway, got my separators today. they are lucky band like things you need to put in between your teeth the day before you get your braces. and yes, i'm getting braces tomorrow!! quite excited! also famining for 40hrs this weekend - perfect timing (:



you may hear that from some people, especially the family and friends of people who've broken the law etc. what someone does is secondary to who that person is? i dunno.

however, what i do believe is, God loves us the same way. He most certainly doesnt love us for what we've done, for we all have sinned and fall short of the glory of God. but He loves us for who we are - His children. i believe good works doesnt get you into heaven. for if it did, heaven would be pretty empty and lonely. i dont think any father (or sane fathers anyway) would stop loving his child for something bad his child did.



religious education is compulsory in most Catholic schools, which is understandable. what shocked me was, in some schools, religion takes up a yr11&12 subject. which means, these students can only do a maximum of 5TEE subjects because the 6th is religion. and ofcourse it is also graded. please correct me if i'm wrong.

to me, i find that quite pointless. religion isnt a 'subject'. you CAN learn all the facts etc by studying it, but there is so much more to that. on top of all that, how many students actually wanna study it? beats me. well i guess Catholicism and Christianity are different. Christianity is a relationship with God. it's not a religion so to say. Christians experience God in their lives. He's not just some oh-so-magificent-far-away-being. He is right here, in our everyday lives. He is so real to me.



if i could be any animal, i'd choose to be a bird. they are so free and can choose where they want to be. they can experience all of God's amazing creations from up high at no cost. they can move dwellings as they please. now i can see where the phrase 'as free as a bird' comes from.

as you can probably tell by now, i love heights. i love to watch the view from the top of buildings, on the plane, mountain peaks, anything really. and yes i prob would go bungee jumping one day. skydiving? nahh. i think i would kill my unco-self due to not being able to open the parachute in time, or any other technical difficulties. but i might consider skydiving with an instructor C:



as you keep on living day to day, you tend not to notice small changes in the people whom you see quite often. but if you stop for a moment, take a short breath and look back, you'll see that so much has changed.

say you are travelling to a certain destination. you read the compass 5 degrees off. you keep travelling at that angle for a long long time. then you stop and you realise that you are far from your original destination. this shows us, doing something minor wrong at first can lead to serious consequences.

ah its past 12am here. so tired. its been a longgg day. so basically what i was just 'trying' to say is, if you stray away from God just that little bit, and keep going down that path, eventually, you'll be very far from God. but what we can do, is to repent, turn away from our wrongdoings and go back to Him. because He will always welcome us with open arms.



you can only trust someone if you have a relationship with that person right? you have to actually know that person, and probably need to know them well. so before we can trust in God to do His work in our lives, we actually have to have a personal relationship with Him. Christianity isnt a religion, its a relationship. God wants to know us. He wants to have a personal relationship with us. if you really love someone, you'll want to spend time with that person right? if we say we love God, then we should spend time with Him. i'm more than guilty of not spending enough time with God. sometimes i may be too tired, or just cant be bothered. you cant say you are good friends with someone that you dont even spend time with. friendship requires sacrifices, especially time. i've found that, after you lose contact with a friend, the friendship just breaks apart. theres nothing there to sustain the friendship anymore.

the verse says, trust in the Lord with all your heart. not just half heartedly like, yea, i know He's there all the time, but whatever kinda thing. we need to be focussed on Him, submitting everything to Him. this way He will make our paths straight.



yesterday, i bought 2 new pairs of heels from Novo. i looked really odd carrying a huge bag with 2 shoe boxes to uni haha. i love Novo shoes, especially when they're on sale (; since the new shop is now open in Harbour Town, i think my shoe collection will grow even faster O:

very happy with my purchases (:

and here is 2/3 of my shoe collection lol:

mind you, all the boxes are filled with shoes too (:

i'm doing the 40 hour famine. its a charity program held by World Vision once a year. participants can choose to go without food or technology for 40hrs straight for a fight against poverty. the funds raised will go towards the children in africa. feel free to donate to me (: thanks