M is for Monica. i'm a full time commerce student @ UWA. i turn one year older on the 14th Oct. i ♥ Jesus and not afraid to tell the world.
i want to do YWAM and missions in the future. i love heights - planes, skyscrapers, mountains, cliffs, you name it. One day i hope to go bungee jumping and sky diving.
i was born in China but have lived in Australia most of my life. Having said that, i'm still quite chinese lol.
i like pink things, ribbons, bows, hearts, hello kitty, ruffles, lace, florals. i have a shoe fetish. i wouldn't call myself a shopaholic, although most of my friends would say otherwise.
People often see me as strong, independent, ambitious. i thank God for the past 21 years that i've been alive. He has been ever faithful, gracious and loving.
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>Your grace has found me just as i am, empty handed but alive in Your hands
>i called, You answered, i wanna be where You are
>i am a flower quickly fading, here today and gone tomorrow, a wave tossed in the ocean, vapour in the wind. still You hear me when i call out, Lord you catch me when i'm falling
and you tell me who i am, i am Yours
>Broken hearts become brand new, that's what faith can do
>A thousand times i've failed, still Your mercy remains. And should i stumble again, still i'm caught in Your grace.
>My heart will sing, no other name, Jesus.
>If i had wings i would fly, coz all that i am, You are. If the world caved in around me, to You i'd still hold on.
>Your light will shine when all else fades
>i'm running to Your arms, i'm running to Your arms. The riches of Your love will always be enough.
>我们不是你和我
>活在第一次的见面里
>只要你一个眼神肯定，我的爱就有意义
>爱转角遇见了谁，是否有爱情的美。爱转角以后的街，能不能有我来陪。
>自由再被绑架之前，我决定过瘾的享受孤单。
>笑着面对每个阻碍，不轻易说离开
>我还记得你笑的像孩子一样
>离开我，你会不会好一点?
>幸福的开始就是放手去爱
>心碎了一地，捡不回从前的心跳
>我会学着放弃你，是因为我太爱你
>you're the only one whose got enough of me to break my heart
>you're the only one i've loved enough to not forget
>Can we pretend that airplanes in the night sky are like shooting stars? i could really use a wish right now
>you're the best thing that's ever been mine
>In a storm, in my best dress, fearless.
>If you're my dream please come true
patience
Saturday, January 30, 2010
doesnt it annoy you when you try to untangle a thin necklace but the more you try the more tangled it gets? i've been trying for the past 2 hours! when i think its about to get untangled, i get impatient and it just gets tangled again. i've given up for the time being.
urgh.
patience is a virtue.
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once more
How to install LOVE
Tech Support: Hello … how can I help you?
Customer: Well, after much consideration, I’ve decided to install Love. Can you guide me through the process?
Tech Support: Yes. I can help you. Are you ready to proceed?
Customer: Well, I’m not very technical, but I think I’m ready. What do I do first?
Tech Support: The first step is to open your Heart. Have you located your Heart?
Customer: Yes, but there are several other programs running now. Is it okay to install Love while they are running?
Tech Support: What programs are running ?
Customer: Let’s see, I have Past Hurt, Low Self-Esteem, Grudge and Resentment running right now.
Tech Support: No problem, Love will gradually erase Past Hurt from your current operating system. It may remain in your permanent memory but it will no longer disrupt other programs. Love will eventually override Low Self-Esteem with a module of its own called High Self-Esteem. However, you have to completely turn off Grudge and Resentment. Those programs prevent Love from being properly installed. Can you turn those off ?
Customer: I don’t know how to turn them off. Can you tell me how?
Tech Support: With pleasure. Go to your start menu and invoke Forgiveness. Do this as many times as necessary until Grudge and Resentment have been completely erased.
Customer: Okay, done! Love has started installing itself. Is that normal?
Tech Support: Yes, but remember that you have only the base program. You need to begin connecting to other Hearts in order to get the upgrades.
Customer: Oops! I have an error message already. It says, “Error - Program not run on external components.” What should I do?
Tech Support: Don’t worry. It means that the Love program is set up to run on Internal Hearts, but has not yet been run on your Heart. In non-technical terms, it simply means you have to Love yourself before you can Love others.
Customer: So, what should I do?
Tech Support: Pull down Self-Acceptance; then click on the following files: Forgive-Self; Realize Your Worth; and Acknowledge your Limitations.
Customer: Okay, done.
Tech Support: Now, copy them to the “My Heart” directory. The system will overwrite any conflicting files and begin patching faulty programming. Also, you need to delete Verbose Self-Criticism from all directories and empty your Recycle Bin to make sure it is completely gone and never comes back.
Customer: Got it. Hey! My heart is filling up with new files. Smile is playing on my monitor and Peace and Contentment are copying themselves all over My Heart. Is this normal? Tech Support: Sometimes. For others it takes awhile, but eventually everything gets it at the proper time. So Love is installed and running. One more thing before we hang up. Love is Freeware. Be sure to give it and its various modules to everyone you meet. They will in turn share it with others and return some cool modules back to you.
Customer: Thank you, God.
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little bit more
Wednesday, January 27, 2010
more sensitivity more care for others more patience more love
i've always prayed for God to show me His calling. i didnt know what He wanted me to do in my life. i knew what i wanted - travel the world, shop, earn big bucks. unexpectedly, God spoke to me today. He placed a special burden in my heart for the chinese people. Mission. it's crossed my mind before but i've never seriously thought about it. i guess it's time to think about it seriously. i only have 2 more years left of uni. after that i'll have to decide what i want to do with my life, or rather, how to glorify God with my life. at this point in time i really dont want to enter the business world. it's never interested me, even though i'm studying commerce. i dont want to stay in perth for the rest of my life either. however, it's not what i want, but rather what God wants.
i will go wherever You want me to go, i will do whatever You want me to do, all for Your glory.
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untangled
Saturday, January 23, 2010
miraculously, after many apologies and thankyous, the knot was untangled. i guess when you trust in God with all your heart, everything just turns out right. everything just falled into place. praise the Lord!
my God is a God of the impossible. He surprises me with things i would never have expected. He resolves situations in a way i would never have thought of. rather than focusing on my own problems, focus on God instead. you will find God is soooooo much bigger than any of your problems!
blessed.
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incapable of love
Wednesday, January 20, 2010
has your mind ever been engulfed by so many thoughts that you just don't know where to start blogging? so many things that i want to let out but don't know how. sighing a year's worth of sighs. sometimes the decisions you make may hurt another person deeply. but there is just no way to avoid the decision and situation. the truth hurts, alot. but i guess i dont know what it really feels to be hurt. i dont know the feeling of heart break. a friend once told me, heart break feels exactly like that - your heart breaking into pieces. trying to maintain a friendship, maintaining a friendship group, maybe its gonna change sooner than i thought? i really like the way these friendships are at the moment. and i sincerely hope that they will stay like this, forever? i know that i'm being selfish. its not because i'm insensitive to other peoples' feelings. i pick up things better than you think i do, most of the time i just dont show it that's all. i tend to avoid sticky situations. once upon a time i used to pride myself of being a heartless person. i like the phrase, i am incapable of love. but through these years i have learnt so much. so much about life, about relationships, about well, loving others. i used to be a truly insensitive person, but God has changed that.
i've always told myself, i will choose the man that i love, even if he doesn't love me. but, loving and being loved are both blessings. however, i still stand my ground on this one. because i cant imagine spending my life with someone that i dont love. and i dont believe feelings can develop with time, no matter what others tell me. being able to find someone that you love who loves you back is such a blessing. if that guy is out there, he is worth the wait.
i used to busy myself so i dont think about you. when my mind is blank, you creep in from the depths into my thoughts. thinking of you became a habit, because there was no one else to fill that place. and when i finally got you out of my head, it felt really empty.
searching for the answers, hoping for the future, knowing God knows the best, praying without ceasing.
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shoes...
Saturday, January 16, 2010
" I did not have three thousand pairs of shoes. I had one thousand & sixty." (Imelda Marcos). A girl can never have too many shoes.. unless perhaps you're Imelda Marcos.
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Blessings
Wednesday, January 13, 2010
Just a blog post to reflect on all the things i take for granted.
i'm so blessed to have- a home to return to; every meal cooked for me, it's already a blessing to just have food to eat every meal; friends that stick with me through thick and thin; parents who give me everything i need, and want; a church to attend and call my own; a job over the summer; clothes, much more than i need; Jesus as the Lord of my life, my saviour and friend.
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Jaeson Ma
Follow on from my previous blog post.
The other day i chanced upon the blog of a young Asian-American Pastor called Jaeson Ma. I watched a few of his clips and they were really touching. They really reminded me not to take everything for granted. He is a very gifted Pastor in prophesying and preaching. In 2010, Jaeson is challenging himself with a program called '365 Days of Love'. It's basically, showing an act of love every single day of the year. He blogs about it everyday, you can read about it here.
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LOVE - Jaeson Ma
Sunday, January 10, 2010
check this out!
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little brothers...
Saturday, January 9, 2010
my bro is such a girl ._. here are some pics&dialogues to go with them. note: he voluntarily posed&let me take these pics.
one day after work me: wheres my big pink flower headband?? bro: i was wearing it me: WHAT?! bro: i always wear it when you're not home me: -______-||
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i was wearing this headband, and my bro took it off my head and put it on his own, saying: this is so cooool! i love bow headbands!
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bro: can i take your bear to newzealand? i cant sleep without it me: my bea, hey wheres my bear?! bro: its been in my room me: since when?? bro: nearly 2 weeks ago me: -_- i didnt even notice...
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bro: i love your hellokitty thing! so soft and cuddly! me: get off my bed you!
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another rainbow
Wednesday, January 6, 2010
here's a dose of nice pictures/quotes before i head off to bed (:
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material possessions
Tuesday, January 5, 2010
Yesterday evening my suburb's 'bushland reserve' was hit with fire. I didn't know about it because i was out the whole evening/night. i received 2 miss calls from my family and 1 from my friend while i was out. So naturally i tried calling home but no one was answering. i tried many more times but still the same. That got me worrying. Then i called my friend and she told me my suburb was on fire! At that moment, the feelings of worry and dread were overwhelming. It's one of those times when you don't know what is happening so all you can do is imagine the worst. i kept trying to call home but no one was answering. URGH. So i just tried not to think about it and enjoy the beach. Yes, i was at the BEACH. 2 hours later i tried ringing home again and finally someone picked up! Oh that feeling of RELIEF! My grandpa told me everything was alright at home and the fire didn't burn our house down. Thank God!
While i was doing my quiet time after i got home from the beach, the verse i read for my devotion was related with material possessions. Coincidence much? Or rather, God was trying to tell me something. All the things we own on this earth are worthless. No matter how many beautiful pairs of shoes or pretty dresses i own, it could all disappear within the blink of an eye. All is worthless. However, God gives my life meaning. All for His glory!
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new years resolution
this year i only have 1 new years resolution and that is: To grow closer to God by spending more time with Him and doing my quiet time daily.
