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M is for Monica. i'm a full time commerce student @ UWA. i turn one year older on the 14th Oct. i ♥ Jesus and not afraid to tell the world.
i want to do YWAM and missions in the future. i love heights - planes, skyscrapers, mountains, cliffs, you name it. One day i hope to go bungee jumping and sky diving.
i was born in China but have lived in Australia most of my life. Having said that, i'm still quite chinese lol.
i like pink things, ribbons, bows, hearts, hello kitty, ruffles, lace, florals. i have a shoe fetish. i wouldn't call myself a shopaholic, although most of my friends would say otherwise.
People often see me as strong, independent, ambitious. i thank God for the past 21 years that i've been alive. He has been ever faithful, gracious and loving.
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>Your grace has found me just as i am, empty handed but alive in Your hands
>i called, You answered, i wanna be where You are
>i am a flower quickly fading, here today and gone tomorrow, a wave tossed in the ocean, vapour in the wind. still You hear me when i call out, Lord you catch me when i'm falling
and you tell me who i am, i am Yours
>Broken hearts become brand new, that's what faith can do
>A thousand times i've failed, still Your mercy remains. And should i stumble again, still i'm caught in Your grace.
>My heart will sing, no other name, Jesus.
>If i had wings i would fly, coz all that i am, You are. If the world caved in around me, to You i'd still hold on.
>Your light will shine when all else fades
>i'm running to Your arms, i'm running to Your arms. The riches of Your love will always be enough.
>我们不是你和我
>活在第一次的见面里
>只要你一个眼神肯定，我的爱就有意义
>爱转角遇见了谁，是否有爱情的美。爱转角以后的街，能不能有我来陪。
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>幸福的开始就是放手去爱
>心碎了一地，捡不回从前的心跳
>我会学着放弃你，是因为我太爱你
>you're the only one whose got enough of me to break my heart
>you're the only one i've loved enough to not forget
>Can we pretend that airplanes in the night sky are like shooting stars? i could really use a wish right now
>you're the best thing that's ever been mine
>In a storm, in my best dress, fearless.
>If you're my dream please come true
incapable of love
Wednesday, January 20, 2010
has your mind ever been engulfed by so many thoughts that you just don't know where to start blogging? so many things that i want to let out but don't know how. sighing a year's worth of sighs. sometimes the decisions you make may hurt another person deeply. but there is just no way to avoid the decision and situation. the truth hurts, alot. but i guess i dont know what it really feels to be hurt. i dont know the feeling of heart break. a friend once told me, heart break feels exactly like that - your heart breaking into pieces. trying to maintain a friendship, maintaining a friendship group, maybe its gonna change sooner than i thought? i really like the way these friendships are at the moment. and i sincerely hope that they will stay like this, forever? i know that i'm being selfish. its not because i'm insensitive to other peoples' feelings. i pick up things better than you think i do, most of the time i just dont show it that's all. i tend to avoid sticky situations. once upon a time i used to pride myself of being a heartless person. i like the phrase, i am incapable of love. but through these years i have learnt so much. so much about life, about relationships, about well, loving others. i used to be a truly insensitive person, but God has changed that.
i've always told myself, i will choose the man that i love, even if he doesn't love me. but, loving and being loved are both blessings. however, i still stand my ground on this one. because i cant imagine spending my life with someone that i dont love. and i dont believe feelings can develop with time, no matter what others tell me. being able to find someone that you love who loves you back is such a blessing. if that guy is out there, he is worth the wait.
i used to busy myself so i dont think about you. when my mind is blank, you creep in from the depths into my thoughts. thinking of you became a habit, because there was no one else to fill that place. and when i finally got you out of my head, it felt really empty.
searching for the answers,
hoping for the future,
knowing God knows the best,
praying without ceasing.
my blog, my life - God's way; M
